Lancer is a… weird little guy? I dunno even though I really liked undertale I didn’t really vibe with deltarune and never played past ep1. I do vaguely remember having fun fighting him.
Soooo, uh, yeah, that’s Lancer I guess. I’d love to hear about everybody’s favourite little weirdos.
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Pretending to be asleep
My parents are talking about forcing my hair to be cut (they really have a problem with it)
My brother starts defending me and shuts down their convo.
What a good kid.
I came out to my little brother!
It went … completely smoothly lol. No surprises on that front.
He guessed I’d been transitioning for 4 years. This was actually kinda correct since I did start exploring my femininity around that time (aka when I left home)
I’m so happy for you!!! Having a supportive sibling rules
Thanks. Everyone I came out to was supportive except the 2 friends that I actually spend the most time with. Quite funny how that works.
That’s a recurring theme I keep seeing on coming out stories. Somehow the people who seem like they know you best have the hardest time with it. I’m glad that most have chosen to support you :)
Wasn’t the worst birthday I’ve had, I didn’t even cry. But someone forgot or at least didn’t say anything which felt and continues to feel bad. And I can’t help but wonder whether they’d care more if I was a real girl
Surprise I just postponed crying until this morning in the bathroom at work! My deskmate had the good sense to take away the nail I had found on the floor, and then I asked her to take away the scissors and button/pin from my desk. I guess that’s all progress
Proud of you for that, I’ve never asked someone to take my sharps
I was kinda surprised myself. I was gonna ask her to take the nail away but lost my nerve, since she did that I figured it’d be good to ask for help with the others
The Time Has Come (Again)
Also just got my ears pierced and I feel so cute and gay :)))
Yay first piercings are so exciting!
Hell yeah! To both things 🥰 Did you get lobes pierced or something else?
Just lobes! Got cute little studs and the soreness is gone, so way more chill than I expected
That’s great! Studs should heal up super fast too 🥰 Are you planning to keep them as studs or swap other earrings?
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Be careful putting on / taking off shirts / bras. Even though they feel chill now, a big bump or pulling on them will make them very mad.
Eventually I’d like to try other more feminine earrings, but I think I’ll probably stick with studs for now. Thank you for the advice, I’ve gotta be super delicate and careful
Mom is currently discussing with her friend as to why I suddenly went from keeping a buzz cut to growing out my hair.
“What could have happened?”
Truly a mystery for the ages
It’s my birthday :/ I wish I could just postpone it or something.
Happy birthweek then
maybe birthmonth or birthyear if you feeling boldBirthlife, perhaps
Happy Birthlife 🥳
Birthdays are so complicated, especially being in the middle of transition. The pressure to make each one special~ definitely doesn’t help either. I’m sorry it’s going to be one of those days
Is there something nice you can do for yourself today? Maybe it won’t be a birthday you think about often, but getting through life and being on HRT for a year recently are worth a lil victory lap. Even if it’s just getting takeaway :p
Well I have leftover Indian from dinner with my family last night… will probably eat that, assemble some IKEA furniture and then cry a little
Being a professional library goer (unemployed) I was asked to fill a survey today. Passionately wrote down all the library did for me and how cool it made me like on a spiritual level
professional library goer (unemployed)
Same
at least the staff is nice to meAt mine I got invited to a Marxist reading club because someone saw I was reading Lenin, lol.
At the library, reading What Is To Be Done and nodding so people know I agree
I got a second hand copy of capital that I might as well read
Important PSA:
Many people want a mommy to take care of them. But where do mommies come from? Not from the sky*! In order to fill the shortage of mommies, we need more femmes to step up and become mommies themselves.
We must seek eggs to nurture them!
*I know your mommy is an angel, but that’s besides the point
ayy i’m a butch and a mommy too
sex
Had sex with a dude for the first time last night, bi confirmed
He was really nervous and couldn’t get it up but gave great head and knew how to finger the prostate like a pro. Looking forward to when he can annihilate my ass
Happy for you! Totally not jealous or anything
It took me ages and ages having boobs before I started having them in my dreams. But it was like 2 days of having a vagina that I started dreaming it was there, that was super fast.
Dad takes my phone. Starts looking at my lock screen which is like some enby mf with 6 arms meditating in a dumpster surrounded by LSD angels. His comment was “anime …”
In 2000 you could get a plant based McDouble for $1 and a side of estrogen for 50 cents
Leading our monthly meeting tomorrow, fuckin hell how did I get roped into being center stage
negativity, jealosy
Sometimes i cant stand seeing other trans ppls progress photos or happiness/joyposting or selfies, stuff that should be positive and feel-good just makes me jealous and upset. Idk if somethings wrong with my brain, i hate it
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I think if you feel that way, then the best thing you can do is to redirect that energy from a negative direction to a positive one. If you want what they have, then the question is how you can obtain it as well. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with your brain: reframing and rechanneling these emotions is a skill that you can practice.
Sometime the answer is just “time” and you can take comfort that it’s something you can look forward to. Sometime the answer is “effort”. For me, I felt envy when it came to relationships and appearance. I obtained the first by putting myself out there and going through the stress of dating, and for the second I put a lot of practice into makeup and learned a lot about fashion. There are still things that I feel a bit jealous of, like shilouette and voice training: these things are definitely addressable, just harder for me and I know that with effort (and time) they are achievable.
Ty for the helpful reply, rationally i know ur right and i shouldnt compare myself to ppl whove been transitioning for way longer with way more effort than i have, and whove developed their relationships over years and sometimes decades, the idiot part of my brain just keeps telling me theres no hope for me specifically. I am trying/will try to think about it in a more helpful or at least less self-hating way, tho
That’s a problem with social media in general. It makes you negatively compare yourself to others. I have trans friends who are doing very well in their transitioning. I try to overwrite my feelings of jealousy with feelings of happiness for them and their personal transition, but also look at all the progress I have made and how my journey is unique.
Sorry if this is not very helpful advice, this is just my way of dealing with it. I’m new to being transgender, so I can’t really offer much more.
No need to apologize!
