JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them]

Sequel to JohnBrownsBussy

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Cake day: March 24th, 2023

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  • Switched from the cheaper nail polish ($1-2 a bottle) to more expensive polish ($5-6 a bottle) and it’s actually lasting several days with minimal need for repairs. I guess my nails aren’t too long right so that also helps. I was thinking of taking them off actually so I could apply cuticle oil, but then I realized that you can just apply cuticle oil to the cuticles without getting any on the nails so now I feel silly for not oiling them over the last few days.

    Also, piercings healed up enough to change out to new ones (8+ weeks). I was getting a bit worried since I started wearing some hinged loops and I was feeling some tenderness/warmth. I switched back to my original studs and I don’t think I have an injection, but my piercings are easier to clean with the studs in so I am going to wear those for a couple of days and then resterilize any new earrings before changing them again.

    medical anxiety, genitalia, masturbation, sex, butt stuff

    Woke up erection this morning which was a bit unexpected. It’s probably fine, and I was sleeping on my belly so it could have literally been from physical stimulation, but it makes me anxious about my spiro since I have trouble taking it at the same times every day, and have missed more than one dose.

    Also worried about function there in general. Since I’ve started chatting and dating, my already quite reduced urges have further receded. I haven’t been physically intimate with anyone yet, but the emotional aspects have kinda filled in that space. It doesn’t help that masturbation has also become somewhat less pleasurable. On one hand, afterglow feels so nice compared to the “post-nut clarity” crash, but I can’t play with my anal toys due to that hemorrhoid/bleeding risk, and I haven’t figured out how to use my vibrator in a particularly pleasurable way. So, the ole’ stroking gets the job done, but the actually O is pretty lame.










  • dating, anxiety, sex (overall things are pretty good)

    The person that asked me out on a second date/meetup finally got back to me. I wanted to show some initiative, and she had suggested the first location, so I suggested a couple options for dinner and activities. Was very nervous since she has been a bit slow in communication, and I was anxious that I didn’t make a first impression and that she was just going to let me down lightly or ghost me. That was just anxiety talking, and she liked some of the suggestions! She’s just busy right now and maybe coming down with something. So, definitely excited. I really like her, and I hate that my anxiety has been needlessly souring my feelings.

    The other person that I scheduled a date with, well, I decided to stop playing coy/hard to get and ask some questions about sex to make sure that we were actually compatible in that department. It sounds like we are. It feels really good to be desired. I think that some clear communication here was very valuable in increasing my comfort levels. Definitely nervous, but increasingly excited. They’re going to a convention that my BFF is concidentally going to, so I am going to orchestrate a meetup so my BFF can give them a secondhand vibe check for me.

    In non dating news, my ears have healed up enough (8+ weeks post piercing) for trying out new pairs. Well out last night with some spiked hoops and some chain earcuffs. The earmuffs didn’t match since I didn’t interpret the multipack product description correctly, but I was able to use a pair of those pieces and mod them into a better option (one of the cuffs has a dangling stud, the other a dangling sword.) I didn’t get any specific compliments on those, but got a ton of compliments on my outfit in general, especially my studded PU leather jacket. I honestly thought it was a bit much or a bit corny, but I guess my inner alt/goth girl knows better than my grown-up woman brain.