I am chuggin gin tonight (not an extended pattern of behavior to be clear) and honestly wtf. Everything is so cruel to the extent that it is almost rediculous.
So, I am a history student and tbh, the absurdity of modern class struggle is becoming fucking unreal to me. I genuinely cannot grasp how the bourgeois sleep at night. Like wtf. The human capacity for indifference is unfathomable. I am watching a video by coffeezilla where he covers the failure of a “bank”, which is technically not a bank, that caused a bunch of people to lose 10s of millions of dollars collectively. Maybe being raised by labor aristocrats sheltered me from the inhumanity of capitalism and thats why this fucks me up so bad but one guy losts thousands of hours of his life to this shit. They’re just fucking gone. How is this normal, how do most people accept this as their reality. I am honestly impressed by the docility of the working class in the imperial core. I think if I dropped a sumerian peasant into the modern United States they would immediately identify our society as fucked up beyond belief the moment they understood it.
idk where I expected to go with this post. shits just fucked up tbh and I cannot grasp why I see it and others don’t. I have little material reason to do so, yet I do and so many others who have a material reason to realize this do not. I think I will smoke tonight and watch an ancient history documentary.
edit: tangentially related but finding you guys made me hopeful for the world, thank you for being sane
“It was real. I’d seen it. I’d seen it in reality. The mask of humanity fall from capital. It has to take it off to kill everyone — everything you love; all the hope and tenderness in the world. It has to take it off, just for one second. To do the deed. And then you see it. As it strangles and beats your friends to death… the sweetest, most courageous people in the world… You see the fear and power in its eyes. Then you know. That the bourgeois are not human.”I REALLY gotta play that game huh
What game?
Disco Elysium
I break down crying about this shit at least once a day. There is so much injustice and cruelty in the world. I am constantly aware of it, it weighs on me at all times. I don’t know what’s wrong with other people, that they don’t feel the pain of others, don’t want to help, don’t care.
Yeah
I keep getting reminded every time I browse this site. Almost all the time all you read are how fucked everything is, with no light at the end of tunnel. Just feeling like you are forced to live with the fact that everything will get worse, and the monsters responsible will never face any consequences, and the world will remain like this until humanity filters itself out.
You can block coms, I actually just blocked c/news for a few days. People still post outside of that com but it cuts down on it.
In my bleakest moments, I think humanity was defeated in 1919 and that everything since then has been the last sputterings of a dying patient
But everything is dynamic. Eventually, even if there is utter failure here & now, victory will come and then a new horizon of history will open up beyond class struggle.
In my bleakest moments, I think humanity was defeated in 1919 and that everything since then has been the last sputterings of a dying patient
what sealed our fate in 1919?
Defeat of the German revolution. The Bolsheviks undertook their revolution with the understanding that revolutions in the industrialized world (especially germany) would succeed.
Could prob pick some other years for the failure of the German revolution, but the defeat of the Spartacist Uprising and murder of Luxembourg and Liebknecht in 1919 stands out.
Yeah, a lot of times I think about stuff like this. It gets really overhwhelming, so don’t dwell on it too long and make sure to take care of yourself
Idk what else to say really other than yeah, humanity was not meant to be set up this way, but as the result of 100s of years of chasing money, here we are, where i will never be able to afford my own home or do tons of other things that even a generation ago were considered “normal” for people my age.
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You’re lucky you can chug gin, I can’t due to medication. Drink one for me please?
ANOTHER IT IS
Sumerian Peasant: Well, no shit things are bad, you don’t have a ziggurat dedicated to Inanna in any of your cities.
Shamesh is feeling vindictive these days
I should have gotten weapons despite it all
yes sometimes i get hit with a tidal wave of awareness and it challenges my sanity, really. I have to somehow let it pass so I can work my job and keep a roof over my head but it sticks there like a splinter in my mind.
Yes, I do. tbh with you lately its been climate change but capitalism continues to surprise me with both how bad it is and how many people still think its workable.
I am chuggin gin tonight
Oh I was hoping that would make me forget this shit.
climate change and how few people take it seriously in America also weighs on me significantly. I am certain that in my lifetime I will see my parents as refugees, knowing where they live. by the end of the night I should be at a point where I won’t remember this fact. gonna play some hollowknight I think
I will see my parents as refugees
We got ourselves an optimist.
Have fun with hollow knight, always meant to play but never quite got around to it.
I’ve been aware since I was old enough to form memories. My country and the area of it I live in give you constant reminders of it. It’s something you just kind of grow numb to after a while.
For some people this is their worst nightmare, for others it’s just the natural culmination of all the pain and violence weve been dealing with forever
personally i’m just playing the long game, prepping myself for death, clinging less, eventually everything we know will perish regardless, it helps that i got out 95% of the things i wanted to do with my life out of the way and have some spiritual beliefs about this life vs the next/the last. it’s a sad ending but i feel fairly proud and content about what i got done with the seed i spawned in
Yes and honestly it has just Jokerized me.
I don’t see society as anything worth contributing to anymore in the imperial core. I’ll gladly be a “leech” in this system.
I don’t see society as anything worth contributing to anymore in the imperial core. I’ll gladly be a “leech” in this system.
Same. I don’t like it and I wish I could have more of a life, but it’s just too hard to do anything and getting a job wouldn’t even allow me to move out on my own, so…
Everyday for over a decade 😮💨
I admire your endurance
