Another suburban Saturday.
Bit of shopping, beard trim, gym, nap.
Take out for dinner. Couple drinks, bit of puff puff.
Comfort movie on tv.
Hope y’all having a good evening.
Life can be shit, but gotta enjoy the little fine times.
Also daughter got a part time job recently and her boss loves her.
We’re so happy for her and she’s feeling over the moon.
And we take the train home together during the week (from uni and work). She fell asleep on my shoulder this week and felt super embarassed later. Probably first time in like 10 years she fell asleep on me.
Anyway… rambling in a good mood
Sleepy.
Goodnight all ❤️
Well, rest wasn’t on the cards. I heard crying meows over the rain and opened the door to a familiar figure on the doorstep. Now I know for sure he’s left out all night in the rain and not going inside/home.
He walked through the house sniffing (including Melbcat’s bed) then he ate from her untouched bowl and rubbed on the wall. I let him out the back to feed him under the tarp and show him the sheltered beds.
grief
Ugly cried while he bunted me because it feels like I’m betraying my late cat by trying to step up for this one. I’m so not ready for another cat even if there was a way to keep him. I haven’t even processed Melbcat’s loss and am just wishing I had her back. I miss how we used to be and don’t know what I’m going to do with/about the new fella.
I know I’m being a stresshead. Nobody is forcing me to help this cat. But I do feel responsible for him seeing the level of neglect and am attached to him so feel like I’m being rushed into another caretaking situation. Just rebounding and replacing my treasured girl. And like these circumstances are pushing me into “moving on” before I’ve had a chance to grieve. I’m feeling everything so strongly right now.
cleaning
I wasn’t expecting this and hadn’t even picked up the floor like I planned. I showered and put my clothes in the wash then sprayed the carpet and objects where he walked with Glen 20 and put the floor junk in a tub. Then did a quick vacuum and mop of his path (disinfectant wipe on the wall) then sprayed Tinaderm.
He’s run off into the night now so I’m going to tuck up in bed until the wash finishes. I’ll have to do the rest of the cleaning tomorrow. I may have to really look at the budget too.
p’s got back yesterday.
OPERATION DIET DAMAGE CONTROL. 40.5kg weigh in for ol’ girl. Here we go again. Wish I could say I’m confident but not much room for error at that weight. I’m running out of options.
In brighter news I fixed the subwoofer with shoe glue lol. If it works it works!
Also found me ol’ great grandpas cobblers last: checkit!
Missing a foot but they don’t make them like they used to.
Try something called Sustagen. I’ve used it in the past when I needed to put on weight due to a degree of malnourishment.
Yep. Throwing everything at it lol.
Dude. You’re locked and loaded!
I hope it goes well man ❤️
that’s not good
seriously, if possible, I would be sitting with her and making sure she eats just like if she were 3 years old , every meal
or a nurse
That’s what I ended up having to do with my mum. The phone would ring, or the doorbell, or the dog would look at her or something, and she’d immediately drop what she was doing and want to attend to it. I had to be a bit of a bouncer with people. She was the sort of person who used to have dinner at the same time every day too, you’d think people would have some damn brains.
Best of luck with the weight gain. It’s so hard 🫂
Have seen them used as doorstops, at which they are very effective. Being stable in multiple aspects.
We’ve got one, never knew what they were called. It’s been a doorstop, but ExMrP put it in the garden for some reason and now it’s all rusty.
They clean up real good, made of good strong cast iron. Worth saving.
Does she like or tolerate sweet flavours? Is there any ability to chew (and able to swallow soft solids)? Because if yes to one or both the options expand exponentially
Sugar is very helpful for calories and solids might be more variety
Ooh! Covet the last.
Wishing you so much luck with the food thing!
Back on the bike again. Even with how wet it was riding home this morning, as soon as you get on a bike you just make this massive sigh of relief to be riding again.
The worst ride is better than the best drive
Yeah. I’m umming and ahhhing about what bike to get. I’ve got a few options and am mostly stuck between something suitable or something nice for 50% more money. I’ve hardly been riding the last few years because I didn’t like my bike so the spend more on the nice option is tempting. Ideally it doesn’t get stolen, and being middle aged I’m hoping it’s the last bike I need to buy for my cycling career.
I got a Velectrix for around $2.5k. It’s a good balance between price and features. The main difference spending more would have got me is a bigger battery for more range. But the battery on this bike is kind of perfect for the ride to work and back right now
trying to get to sleep earlier, no coffee was had
Good night everyone
sweet dreams 😘
I hate vaccuming carpet. Fuck carpet. Should be illegal lol
It’s the worst.
It’s a shame that rugs are hard to clean and a trip/slip hazard. (I know washable ones exist but don’t know how well they pull up and also a decent size would be too large or heavy for the machine)
Edit: I meant washable rugs over a bare floor as a compromise
I’m tired. I can tell as I have zero patience for illiteracy today.
Lately I feel like I’m drowning. Slogging through life with all the responsibility to deal with it but none of the control required. Can’t I get a break?
spoiler
This grief counseling is likely going to consist of ✨10 sessions under a mental health plan ✨ (with out of pocket fees 💸)
I’m going to borrow a weighted blanket and see if that acts as some kind of thunder shirt, and am considering a cheap lava lamp for night. No idea if these things help or just yoink money
so many hugs
is it possible you can have a rest and watch some movies or listen to some music?
Thanks, I will. Tonight might just have to be rest
The tarp came down in the most important place, that doesn’t stay. Trying other things
So having had a full nights sleep the other night, and then last night having the standard 2 hour blocks, I’m really fucking down and out today.
I’m thinking “is this how I’ve been the last 2 years and I stopped noticing?!?!”
Are you taking your medication in the morning or afternoon?
If you’re not sleeping well then that would be the first thing I’d look at.
I take it throughout the day. I’ve got a doc appointment Monday to go over it and see if some adjustments can be made. Hopefully.
Very good
hugs
I’m super old and late to the game but I have figured so much of life is just organising to make it easy to do healthy things
so what is it that makes it easier to get a full night’s sleep for you? Do that.
Going to the gym. So I’ve done that today, just worn out. Hopefully tonight I get a decent sleep.
I don’t care if I have to go 7 days a week. Whatever works.
beach
I’ve dawdled over lie in, breakfast, shower and rain observation long enough. Slow to get going, as I’m a wee bit sore from a lot of walking last night…but it’s time to go do my shopping
Happy Saturday! Boyo is now officially unemployed. Post is cordially invited to eat a giant bag of dicks.
❤️
I think it’s read a book kinda day.
Absolutely. I have made it to the couch but not planning on venturing much further
I’m putting a movie on and doing some sewing
and if the weather clears a bit more, beach ( I am going crazy wanting to see what has washed up on the big beach )
