So I’ve come to a realization after about a couple decades of stress and shit that I probably have adhd. Obviously I don’t want to for sure since I haven’t been diagnosed, but when I’m literally yelling at myself to do stuff and can’t stay focussed on basically anything, and get extremely overwhelmed via information overload, etc. It’s a good idea to get checked out.
But…I don’t want the medicine. I don’t know why but I dont like the idea of it. I take other medications, heartburn meds, cold medicine, vaccines, etc. But I dont like shit messing with my head. I don’t even drink coffee (and I don’t drink or smoke either. Hell, im even reluctant to take painkillers) It causes such anxiety in me, I don’t exactly know why either. But the me who is shit and can’t focus and whatever is all I’ve known. I dont want to be someone else because I took a little pill filled with chemicals. It’s stupid. I know its stupid. If this was someone else talking to me I’d be saying “well You’d improve yourself and you’re just making yourself focus like a normal prrson.” But I have such a fear of…of whatever I fear. I don’t understand.
I have ADHD and do not take drugs. What has helped me the most is exercise. Exercise everyday in the morning (Do NOT try to do boring exercise. Do something fun or you wont do it. Find something you enjoy to get exercise. I like to play music, and dance around.) It will help you focus and do things by releasing natural hormones ADHD people are low on generally. The same ones that medications try to replace.
Don’t feel bad about taking breaks either. If you feel yourself getting bored get up and exercise some more. Afterwards youll feel much more focused.
Its called Attention Deficit and Hyperactivity Disorder for a reason. If we are not extremely active we have trouble with focus. This is not a flaw. Its an evolutionairily advantageous thing. We would have been amazing hunters in tribal times for example. The issue is modern life in general does not fit with natural human behavior and ADHD people are more susceptible to that than others. We need to allow our bodies to move, and give them what they need.
Think of it like this. You need to do your taxes because society says so. But your body wants you to eat. If you don’t eat enough your gonna have trouble doing your taxes as your body wont work right. ADHD people NEED to be active. If we aren’t then our bodies won’t work right when we go to do other things. As long as you give your body what it needs though it’ll work great for you on those other things.