You draft up messages of what to say to someone but never really send them. Instead, you pretend that they’ve responded to whatever nonsense you conjured. In the time you could’ve spent potentially building a friendship, you’ve got nothing and sometimes even think you’ve reached out (this has gotta be one of the biggest downsides to virtual communication imo I’ve never been able to convince myself that I’ve been in person with someone)

Perhaps this might be a sign of low-self confidence?

Starting to think I might be neurodivergent as I get older although I’ve never been diagnosed. What I’m describing is a pattern when it comes any type of person who is new in my life.

I guess it explains why I’ve mostly kept the same set of friends since elementary/high school though 😅 curious if anyone has pointers