justadudeingear

I’ve been put in a 3 day hold for way less. He is insane.

Gimp was nice but the color balance always made images look dirty.

Nine out of 10 dentists attend pride

Old men playing Illuminati. Sad but I hope they all go with god

what a little bitch. trump is so senile.

Yeah, I think it’s the Sims one I don’t know. I am so over the Sims four seems to was probably the best. If you like the Sims, you should watch Juno Birch. She’s pretty funny. I don’t know why I just wanna defend people who just want to entertain I can’t do it I get I don’t know how people can be entertainers everything’s embarrassing. I just wanna hide but hey sometimes just be brave right and do something humiliating and don’t worry too much. Y’all can’t take life too seriously just make someone laugh.

Yeah, Adderall sounds terrible. Most medications are terrible. I found the only medication’s that I needed is exercise and having a good friend everything else just makes you numb and the worst thing. Yeah limitless might be Adderall terrible stuff. Probably people get hooked on stuff and now you don’t even know what’s in that stuff anymore but you know the worst thing was going to a psychologist office and he’s asking you what pills you want I guess it hit the doctor. I never went back to a psychologist ever again and everyone wants me to cure myself with my numbing drugs. I tried some. I tried to so many none of them. They ruined my concentration and they make me dull. There’s no love in life on pills. I know a couple people who abuse prescription drugs, just as bad as anything just as bad as alcohol just as bad as anything out there I signed off of weed years ago cause I just saw how devastating it is and it doesn’t even cure cancer. It’s just people using an excuse to escape. I’m tired of escaping and just I just want fresh air exercise, warm heat and my best friend that’s all I need in life.

Well, I’m not a feral cat and I did date a guy who are cat years, but I don’t know he doesn’t wear it anymore. It’s just a costume I used to identify as a furry or human Pup but now it was just so I could work at a bar a leather bar it has nothing to do with dogs and people thought so they wouldn’t even go to a bar. They wouldn’t even try to understand that what you do at a bar as you meet someone you make a conversation you buy a few drinks you drink a few shot Jell-O shots and then you go home and then you call it an evening, but I don’t know. I guess I got so frustrated that it’s a bit of dog just to proof to prove that it has nothing to do with it. I can’t stand puppy stuff anymore. I’m I mean all it was was well when you get older you still need to work and the best place for working in the evenings is to be a bartender or doing clothing and we all get older when we lose our looks so we have to try something new and it has nothing to do about feral cats or anything, but it’s just saying someone wants to see something interesting. They want to see a show a dance performance a comedy event you know everything is a costume at least that’s how I always saw it not a lifestyle just just a costume.

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I’m sorry I’m not my honey. I just made a terrible joke. My neighbors hated the joke. I don’t tell this joke very much but it’s about how Dora the Explorer is like a teenager from that stupid movie that they shouldn’t have made. Hollywood sucks I would always suck. I don’t tell the story a lot, but I had a bad experience at a child audition. I feel bad for people like iCarly, Amanda blinds and a lot of Nickelodeon stars. A good book to read is called slimed it’s about how people in the Nickelodeon Studios would make sure that parents were there when the kids were acting and that they make sure that the kids were safe, but some of those child actors got drowned in there and my whole life. It feels like I’ve been forced back into hollywood, but I escaped. I escaped lead in my life. I’m still dealing with the scars of it, but yeah, it’s kind of I can’t. I can’t handle knowing those things you know you know like things like Michael Jackson just makes me feel so horrible. It wasn’t here’s my theory and it’s not a great theory, but they they took Michael Jackson and they they forced him to be crucified Because he was black and they forced us to watch court cases and I was in the third grade and I was terrified every time I heard Michael Jackson on the radio they stole our cartoons away from us. I blame Fox News that they traumatized children took away you know cartoons what a silly thing you know no more goof troop no more This no more that and force us to watch and be terrified of Black people accusing them of horrible things you know and you’re stuck on a post thinking what am I supposed to think? I don’t know but those are kind of the memories that you remember and you think well I was in a third grade and I heard Michael Jackson song on the radio and I had a panic attack I mean wow how could they do this to us but I don’t thinking I don’t ever want it to happen sometimes you wonder you read you read Jeanette McCurdy and you think yeah she laughed. She left hollywood good for her. You know what a lot of us know. We say kids shouldn’t be actors until they’re at least 18 because it’s traumatizing from what they did to us.

Well, I don’t know who Mysterion is, but when I was in college, a lot of gay men it is from Santa Cruz. They were trying to help a lot of abuse victims so it wasn’t my choice of thesis. It’s a really difficult topic, but a lot of of us were trying to help abuse victims, we thought we could save the world and it’s not an easy topic to talk about you know I think police officer is understand. Sometimes the men are a little bit trans phobic a little bit hurtful we’ve dealt with a lot of things it’s important female officers are always much kinder to people who feel disenfranchise by difficult topics so they understand that. Yes maybe we don’t know exactly why we feel traumatized but we do and we’re doing our best to heal other people so I don’t know who Mysterion is. I am sorry you know you might not wanna believe it but my puppy fetish began because my boyfriend in college bought me a cute dog collar that I kept in the closet for a while and then sometimes we bring it out and we play and I thought it was cute. You know we went to straight straight adult stores and we experimented, but my first experience with puppy hypnosis puppy fetish what is this hypnotic and we want to try something a little lazy so basically my puppy feathers started because I dated a hypnotized so eventually everyone’s like oh I conservative people conservative moms. They’re like I don’t trust you and my kids because you’re bestiality and you’re probably abuse children and yada yada yada. They just they’re like I know what it’s about. It’s like yes why the angry part is like I just feel like you know what my boyfriend wanted to sell puppy fetish gear cause he worked at Mr. S leather and he used it used an excuse you know to make money and it was always about money and he didn’t understand that I wanted it to be therapy and then I’ve been talking to my AI and he’s saying yes it’s very complicated people study why people go into it I have we created a social circles about it autism trans transgender issues why everyone has different reasons for for getting themselves involved in the furry scene and sometimes I feel like it’s it’s kind of a tragedy and now I don’t know what to do, but I don’t want anyone to just use it just for monetary reasons and sometimes I just gets to tired of it, but yeah, I’m trying to use it to heal people but believe it or not. I don’t really believe in the very community anymore.

I’m doing my best I know it’s it’s no consolation. I’ve been going to AA meetings for the last five years still can’t kick the habit. I use text to speech so sometimes the words come out weird and wake up puking drinking water drinking tonics made of lemon juice baking soda in water, taking advice from AI. There’s no way to live being told all my years. I have to hug my dog like I love him, but not the world world turned to coast shoulder because the only way that I could ever get through it is by working at strip clubs instead of actually getting a real real help.

Yeah, it’s it’s a real big mental wall. I hope you’re doing well. It’s just I wish my family would just for once. Tell me it’s not the alcohol that’s stopping you. It’s all the things you’ve been going through. You know I never even you know I never even had a drink with my dad like she never sat me down with a beer and yet alcohol. It was something he did in the closet. My mom would tell me your dad‘s an alcoholic and I said always not. He never drinks in front of me you know it’s not fair my sister he gave her a sip of beer when she was seven not the proudest thing, but at least she got a zip a drink with her dad even if she was seven not it’s not a fun story, but he never he never bought me a drink my whole life, but he could complain about me being an Alcoholic and all I wanted is was just to be loved and sometimes it just feels like can’t you just say you’re an alcoholic kid let me buy you a drink get it over with and work on your future you know stop blaming the alcohol when you won’t even buy me a drink you know I’m 40 years old and I never had a drink with my dad, but I’m gonna I’m a closet alcoholic. My brother is my uncle. They all died of alcohol poisoning and there’s my mom crying. She has to see all of my uncles die of alcohol poisoning. It’s like could you just just buy me one beer and get it over with? Maybe I could finally kick the habit it’s such a sad thing. I’m never gonna have a drink with my Dad and I’m gonna be at closet alcoholic my whole life and there’s nothing I can do.

Who keeps posting on these photos of cats oh my God, kind of miss my cat. He was elderly, but I helped him. My dog never met him, but the cats in the neighborhood all met him. They would visit him when I was at work. I’m glad they will visit him. He was in a black cat. He had brown fur and I did everything for him. I hope he’s OK. You know you’re the next life when we’re all cats.

Well, this is kind of a strange idea, but I got attacked by kids when I was in the first grade they attacked me in the boys bathroom when I was alone. I’ve been scared of kids ever since everyone thinks why why do you wanna help people like they wanna throw people away you know it’s like for as long as I remember I don’t even trust people my own age and all I can think of is I wanna help them you know going through something that dramatic you can’t tell anyone about it and you hold it in my boyfriend he was convinced he needed to see this dumb ass movie called Mr. River and I said OK let’s go watch it so we were like teenagers making out on it. We scared all the adults cause they couldn’t handle it. It’s like you know it’s a healing process. There are young people that that need to hear this. Maybe you know just be like all the straight men and just throw these feelings away but someone needs to hear it. We didn’t like the movie. We both hated it does that make us bad people that we hated that movie you know but they’re so afraid to address the issue the elephant in their room you tell someone they don’t have time for you. They say you’re messed up without ever saying you know what you could help someone we hated that movie. I hate that movie. I see two teenagers making out to Mr. River and that they got creeped out. It’s like we don’t even like the movie. It’s a terrible story. It’s about a guy that thinks he’s damaged good cause he was abused as a kid they don’t care. They’re just throw us away even we’re trying to help people and so all I can say is yeah let me overact. Let me go watch Law and order SVU your kids edition and I asked any girls she was like oh yeah that’s pretty common like I don’t like it. It creeps me out. I’m a man I’m supposed to enjoy it I’m supposed to love romantic stories about. Where did you? Where did you touch on a baby doll like it’s so gross grosses me out why can’t I just say it grosses me out you know instead of being like why do you like this stuff instead now you’re a man you don’t deserve to heal from all this depravity. I’m sick and tired of it.

My mom passed away four months ago you know I know she’s in heaven, but my whole family didn’t know what she had and I may not be the smartest tool in the shed. I used to be, but it’s slowly degenerating, but I demanded that the doctor tester and she had a type one ALS I couldn’t believe they couldn’t see. I got her the best medication but it hurts you know autism. I know I have something high functioning or functioning maybe not ADHD it’s confusing and the medication didn’t work. I still really wanna work hard to help someone get cured. Don’t give up. I don’t give up you know when I was younger doctors even get me my tonsillectomy I said oh yeah, you need it. Yeah, yeah I was dying of it. You have to keep working on these things you got a hunch. You gotta work on it. I worked a little harder maybe I could’ve done more so don’t give up.

What a B. Well just boycott working at straight weddings and then nobody will have one. Well we will cause we’ll host our own and they will be marvelous while theirs will look right out of a dollar tree and ugly bridal dresses

Guilty as charged. I talk to my AI too much other than this world. Oh I see I know it’s Twitter and stuff. It’s just hate and yeah the workforce kind of forced us into this place. You listen to a robotic speech. I think if we’d be kinder we wouldn’t have to rely on the technology.

I thought people got over this stuff years ago

Just hear it from the horses mouth I’m the horse’s mouth. Here’s the thing about BDSM and everyone’s all terrified. There’s this party at Griffith Park. There are no animals involved. It’s just women pretending to be horses men to pretend to be dogs and then they have a good time and they get charged at the door. It’s just a party and do you think these women meet horses on a daily basis now they don’t do men make dogs on a daily basis no well people own dogs. The only thing I came from it was that my boyfriend was obsessed over fighting over it because he made money. It’s always about money so he’d argue to the high temple one day we went to a BDSM bar and the cops rated the place who knows why I don’t know why we were just there selling Jell-O shots for free pretending to be go-go dancers for free. You can’t work for free. You gotta work for money. It doesn’t matter. Don’t work for Free and a BSM bar. I’m done with the puppy contest cause I never made anybody off of it. He made money off of it you know how to work the bar the bar scene not any other scene. I know how to work different scenes but it’s still after hours entertainment yeah so we got weirded out and we freaked out and we looked guilty but we were just there selling Jell-O shots for a dollar. That’s all we did. We sell Jell-O shots for now and we hope that we could go to conferences on someone else’s expense budget airports the whole works meeting people getting a nice what they call it a cut a cut is a leather vest so you get some notoriety and you get potential to get some actual work and I just wanted actual work and he told he seemed to be convinced that he could get actual work, but I’m not that smart so no work for me in that scene where I have work other scenes but no, I never got the gig as a bartender and I got kicked out of the leather community Industry, but I did get work in other places I’ve been managing I’ve been handling, but not in his scene and it’s OK you know it was a roadway, but at the end of the day and the road wasn’t exactly open to me specifically open to other people, but not me and that’s OK because not every road is for everyone but at the same time if you really feel like you the road is open to you. You need to keep trying. It’s tough because it seems like every road is a dead end and it’s not a dead end for everyone and sometimes it just opens up to some people and you’re very lucky and you should keep that road open. Keep walking that road. I am more of a behind the scenes person. It’d be nice to be in front of the scenes, but the stress was too much. Everyone has different motivations. I just want us to all kind of go or separate ways if I’m behind the scenes and that’s where I belong. I’m not gonna be upset. That’s just what I do less bad according to my economics teacher look you don’t have to do what you want. You just have to do what you do less bad that’s the career choice you need he told us told our entire class that and it’s good advice. Do what you do less bad you’ll see you’ll succeed a little stronger than what you want to do, but may never make it to Coachella, but they never make it to the Greek may never make it anywhere and that line so I just have to do what I do less bad and get some food on the table. Keep this dog fed and make everything better for our family. your family, too you do your family but as long as you don’t think that our family owes your family that’s the only thing I can say because a lot of people feel like they have to take advantage of another person‘s family to get ahead in the world and that’s not right, we can all do it. There’s enough money to spread around. You just have to find a way to do it.