I’ve never posted here before, so I’m hoping I’m not breaking any rules or acting in poor etiquette. I’m epileptic and some months back I was hospitalized with severe seizures, ever since then my memory has been utterly shit. It’s embarrassing, forgetting basic things at work and around the house. More importantly, I don’t feel totally present in my life now. My sense of time, from months to days, is screwed up. Seriously, sitting here, I can’t tell you just what month I was hospitalized. A couple months ago or more than half a year ago? I’ve never had such bad seizures. I feel like it is so taxing on my wife who already has so much to deal with.
I’m not really sure why I’m typing this except that I guess I could use the support or some perspective. I feel such guilt and helplessness lately. My wife, family, and friends deserve better than me being so screwy and needy. But I know if the roles were reversed I’d do anything for them. I just hate feeling so helpless and stupid.
Thank you, that’s very kind. I am definitely loved, I know that for sure.