I’ve felt rancor and bitterness towards most of my surroundings for all of recent memory and have now realized that it’s starting to affect my relationship (im growing impatient, ready to fly off the handle, a little defensive) and i feel like im in some way broken or “unfit” for a relationship. Very important to mention that i forgot to take my meds for an extended period and now they are virtuslly useless bbecause im a dimwit and am unable to properly remind myself of my fairly important emotional stability pills; This lack of pharmaceutical support (all a byproduct of my own actions) i think also plays a very big role in my current situation.

How do i not lash out or ruin my relationship with my partner because of my general unhappiness and, for lack of a better term, hate for and towards everyone else around me

  • Ember_NE@lemmygrad.ml
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    4 days ago

    I can’t give you adviae related to mental health conditions or anything, but here are aome thoughts on anger in general.

    Anger is an energetic feeling. What you need is an outlet for that anger, you need to do something. Because the source of your anger is political, it can be a great source of energy to do political work (done in a measured manner) like organizing, agitating, or reading tough-to-read theory. A healthy amount of exercise is also a great outlet and will objectively make you a more capable revolutionary because it imprives your health, energy, and mood.

    Anger, like many emotions, can be a component of ruminating thoughts. You also need an outlet for those thoughts. That can be something like political writing related to an issue or other agitprop, journaling for yourself, art, or venting and dark humor with a comerade. However, if you are still stuck no matter what and feel like the thought isn’t progressing, don’t feed it by giving it undue attention.