I’ve felt rancor and bitterness towards most of my surroundings for all of recent memory and have now realized that it’s starting to affect my relationship (im growing impatient, ready to fly off the handle, a little defensive) and i feel like im in some way broken or “unfit” for a relationship. Very important to mention that i forgot to take my meds for an extended period and now they are virtuslly useless bbecause im a dimwit and am unable to properly remind myself of my fairly important emotional stability pills; This lack of pharmaceutical support (all a byproduct of my own actions) i think also plays a very big role in my current situation.

How do i not lash out or ruin my relationship with my partner because of my general unhappiness and, for lack of a better term, hate for and towards everyone else around me

  • amemorablename@lemmygrad.ml
    10·
    5 days ago

    Some brief thoughts:

    • Identify the causes: for example, in your case (forgive my peeking at profile) you are on the autism spectrum, so sensory processing issues could be a factor in irritation and mood strain. Working out ways to help you get space when you need it or things like that, may help.

    • Try things like breathing techniques

    • Be kind to yourself! I see some mean self-talk going on. Sometimes rage turns inward which ends up exacerbating dysregulation. What does it mean to be kind to yourself? Looking after your needs, advocating for them (asking for help where needed), having reasonable expectations of yourself (individualism tends to have us expecting too much).

    • KRat@lemmygrad.mlOP
      5·
      4 days ago

      dont feel bad about peeking at my profile, i put it there for the world to see ^^ also, it could be very likely something caused by my neurodivergence and subsequent inability to understand some societal problems or just feeling unheard and oppressed by the masses. I have been having a little difficulties with being kind to myself recently, my partner helps me alot with it because he’s actually an angel and i adore him too much

      • Maeve @lemmygrad.ml
        1·
        4 days ago

        Nice bubble bath/Epsom salt soak with low lighting/candles, some nice smelling essential oil? I need that, myself, but I have to see if I can afford it after bills/necessities.