Jan 22, day 46. Still solo in my chastity play and sex life in general. Based off my experience, I think extended solo chastity – where there isn’t continuation of other sexually arousing activity with a partner – has the potential to push one into a headspace for a while of not thinking about or being interested in sex, although I’m sure ‘mileage varies.’ I think this relates to a buildup of tension from the lack of orgasms; and also how much one sees anal masturbation as a way to release that tension.

Two days ago, I masturbated for the first time in 2 or 2.5 weeks. It was the night before a big day for me irl. I was feeling tense and irritable. I said to myself, you need to get fucked and have some sexual release whether you’re turned on right now or not. So I turned on a fave short porn and rode my dildo for 5 min. It felt good mentally, sexually, and physically.

When I was briefly fingering my ass with lube to get things started, it felt different. It felt like I was touching my main sex organ, not the ‘secondary kinky one I sometimes play with’ or something like that. I barely had a thought about touching my cage. I’m not much of a chastity support strap wearer, but I think I like wearing mine during sex or masturbation, because it lessens the felt weight and swing of male parts when I ride.

Afterwards, in terms of how I masturbate or have sex, I saw myself as ‘receptive only’ more than usual, and I loved that feeling and felt a bit euphoric. It didn’t feel like I was wearing a cage and choosing not to use my penis. It felt like I didn’t have a penis and was masturbating in an anatomically (and gender) appropriate way.

I had a few micro orgasms. I left the session feeling pretty sexually satisfied. And my mood improved.

I woke up two days later thinking more fondly than I ever about the idea of a male partner. While I’ll say I’m probably still more romantically and sexually attracted to women, some advantages of a male partner were salient. I’d have a real cock to suck and fuck me all the time. And instead of feeling like the second most feminine person in a relationship with a woman, I could feel like the most feminine person in the relationship with a man – my distinct niche.

I got a new cage recently. A cheapie, first metal cage. I hope to leave a review soon. On Jan 28th, I’ll tie my longest streak to date, and that’s another good reason to post. Thanks for reading 🫶