Yeah, it can be slow. But one day soon you’ll be getting dressed and think, “shit, I need a bra”… and that will be super affirming <3

Wow, those are some long clips! I listened through the first one. Here’s my (honest) feedback (not a German speaker).

Most of the time you sound to me like a woman speaking in a relaxed voice at the low end of her range; kind of middle-aged I guess? You sometimes slip just for a moment into a more male-sounding (heavy & large) tone, particularly at the end of phrases, but the effect is more “huh, that was weird” rather than “it’s a man!”.

By the second half you’ve climbed a semitone or two I think, and your expression is a bit more free and lively. It sounds a lot more natural, but slips stand out a little more.

Did you know you can do the same resonance adjustments when clearing your throat, coughing and so on? Perhaps if you started off with a more girlish “ahem” noise that might key listeners in to what you’re going for.

Anyway, it was not at all unpleasant to listen to, and I think sounds fairly natural and feminine overall. Good job and thanks for sharing!

Oh yeah, I totally get that.

When I’m doing something for fun, I’m far more interested in the process than the end result, so I’ll do everything from first principles. And probably never finish before I move on to something else. But that’s fine.

If it’s something I need to get done, on the other hand, then by the time I’ve started we’re probably already into crisis mode, and so getting it complete as quickly as possible becomes the goal. Then I’m all for finding whatever shortcuts I can.

Fortunately I’ve explored a enough topics (particularly in programming) for fun by now that I have enough background knowledge to be good at it for a career. Experience does build up, and even if you’re jumping around all over the place, eventually you’ll start to see the bigger picture.

Mm-hm 🩷

Ouch, this one is too real!

I also got my ADHD diagnosed some time after starting HRT. I can’t say whether hormones made it better or worse, but I think I’m more aware of how my mind is working now rather than dissociating all the time. I think going to the clinic for HRT made it easier to go see someone about mental stuff.

My partner insists I’m ASD as well, which seems plausible. Apparently Trans + ADHD + ASD is kind of a set menu.

My mood goes up and down a lot more now too, and I tend to burst into tears easily. Which might look like I’m in a worse state, but it’s really just that I’m present finally and I can feel things. Other people have said the same thing, but I feel human at last.

Oh, and I don’t remember where I heard this, but treating ADHD can cause other mental issues to reveal themselves. So it might not be HRT at fault.

I got my third generation of skinny jeans. That is, when I started transitioning, I bought the tightest jeans I could fit into. Then I lost weight, and they got too loose to wear, even with a belt. Repeat x 2.

My legs looked fucking hot today.

Well I’d kind of known since forever in a “ha ha, but everyone feels like that though, right?” way. Then some ADHD memes randomly came up on Youtube, and I realized that it was me, exactly. The same thing happened with egg_irl a while earlier, and since doing something about that had made my life much better, I went to see a psychiatrist, who immediately agreed that I had ADHD and prescribed me some drugs.

It also didn’t help that I’m predominantly-inattentive type, which is apparently more common in women (surprise!)

Oh yay, that community is alive again! I just read all your posts there. I was pretty worried when I saw your post last month, but it looks like you’re getting a handle on things. Stay strong <3

Hello, welcome, fairly similar situation here too. I also started out on the quiet, figuring I’d let HRT cook for a while until I could flip the switch all at once. But that didn’t last long :)

Have a fun transition, and do it for yourself!

That’s a lot of heartache to have gone through. I hope things get better in the future.

Congratulations on the orchi <3

They’ll figure it out eventually. Worked for me 😁

Same.

Me: Oh! A chance to do all the things that have been building up on my checklist!
Brain: But what about all these other things I just thought of? And you still haven’t even started learning Korean…

Wow, that’s a beast of a card! And here was me still feeling pleased with my 6600 XT I got a few years ago… 😶

Hope the employment situation works out OK.

It sucks that you feel bad. I hope that passes soon and you can see the value In yourself.

Perhaps your friend sees you differently from how you think. If you like spending time with her, that’s worth pursuing.

Many fond memories of using RISC OS as a kid. It’s good to know that it’s still alive!

Yaay!

That’s lovely!

Hehe. Nice observation!

Although, isn’t this basically Newton’s method of square roots? I don’t recall how floating point implementations usually do it, but it’s not too surprising that the performance is similar to the algebraic approach.

That’s nice to hear. I recognize a lot of what you’re saying <3

It feels good to be able to open up to people at last.