Had a therapy appointment for the first time in 10 years. They did not bring up my gender dysphoria diagnosis or my transness at all despite that being a pretty major development in my mental health since I last went. A trans friend have me resources though, so I’m going to go to one that specializes in lgbtq mental health so I don’t have to deal with cis ignorance
At least if you engage with a llm with caution you know it’s an algorithm that runs off the scraped data of the aggregated internet and thus can take everything it shows you with a massive grain of salt and sift through the pile of bs like when googling a question and sorting through Reddit threads to find scaps of ideas you find valuable. With so called professionals they have the appearance of authority which inclines you to trust them even though a good chunk of them have no idea what they are talking about half the time and just got through med school with daddy’s money and good test taking skills. This is more about my dislike of medical professionals than me liking llms though
Coming from the second category it is pretty absurd to realize despite having a clearheaded understanding of the external world that somehow I hadn’t applied that analysis to the internal for a long time. At the same time being a leftist and already having an understanding of the fucked nature of so called gender and social roles and oppression helped bring that understanding of myself when I was really ready for it. Still a little ridiculous tho
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Felt deeply. Circumstance and material conditions can make that catharsis hard to find but without it one carries the weight of our collective suffering individually , and thats no way to live. Screaming into the void alone can only do so much .
A little more than a week ago I vented out a feeling of isolation and nihilism and hopelessness for myself , but I let it out and cast it aside , burned like a sacrifice. My sacrifice was rewarded , and a search without desperation and full of confidence showed me a moment of true revolutionary queer love in a way I’d only experienced in grandiose poetry. It was beautiful and we were truly free there in each other’s arms. Love you all comrades
So text generation ai works as a word prediction algorithm, finding whatever word is most likely to come next. When used to edit work , this along with the way models are tuned will naturally choose more likely and therefore more simple words over more complicated words that convey more nuance and meaning , simplifying and dumbing down our writing.
This feels like a cumtown bit
88 years? Interesting…
Forgot my old password , made a new account. Didnt post much in the first place .
I need an outlet for my love , but I fear it will never come. No way to meet people, not that anyone would have the time and energy for me anyway. I at least just want to be held and comforted and listened to, thats all I’ve ever wanted. Instead , emptiness , unanswered longing for infinity. Nobody to worship, nobody to seek refuge in, nobody to share my thoughts both deep and meaningless with. Just a sad desperate woman,
Fuck valve for not doing shit about hate speech I just want to play counter strike without dealing with the outrageous amounts of chud ass Nazis on the game. Most interactions I have there just strengthen my wishes for [REDACTED]