“That’s a name to die for”

• James Bond, circa. 2002

Implying I had control? I’m slowly coming to think i don’t.

My theory is that if people can turn to a material distraction (mass media, games, etc), mentally exhausting labour, or a social network in the same standing, ASAP after information of such an event, they do not have to act or even think about the event itself. I have come to this conclusion based on my toxic environment and absence of any enjoyable activities, so take it with a grain of salt.

I’ve thought about this before. All this talk of resilience, bouncing back, standing strong, etc seems so… empty. Of course we’ll do all that after something devastating and traumatic. But that is thanks to our biological drive to survive and reproduce, not some innate, higher ideal that only the ‘strong’ among us possess. The whole point of human progress is to evolve and thrive beyond being resilient to traumatic events which shouldn’t have happened in the first place.

Venting maybe???

Shit. I hope you get a proper diagnosis, if needed, sometime in the future.

I AM TOTALLY UNQUALIFIED TO SAY THIS, but has this been a problem for long? Silly mistakes in math have been a staple of my academics, only before I was diagnosed with ADD. I’m on medication and it helps with focus. Don’t know about the math stuff because I’m pretty sure I’m done with all exams in my life.

Damn, same thing here. Except that I had moved out to study from a good university, but had to come back because I didn’t get a job. I have ADD and suspect Autism as well.

SOH = Strait of Hormuz BEM = Bab-El-Mam… Strait? Sorry, don’t know the spelling. r* = Rockstar???

Oh wait, is this a Taylor’s expansion? But what is he expanding lol???

you should give yourself some grace and congratulations for graduating, it’s hard and not everyone can go through it. even “half assed” is more than many of us can achieve.

I see it as the thing that I did because I do not derive enjoyment from anything else. I can’t distract myself with sports, exercise is no fun for me, I don’t care enough to put my limited energy into relationships and friendships, and playing video games gets too out of control so I end up removing them completely. Of course, I will acknowledge that my parents financial status has allowed me to spend extra time here to finish my education. But it has always felt uncomfortable, and hence I wouldn’t spend much on anything apart from supporting my essential life functions.

For whatever it’s worth, the limited free time here has accelerated my Marxist leanings, especially after my fervent ‘self pitying’ about my material conditions, and seeing how Europeans (atleast the white, well off ones) actually ‘live’ life, compared to the middling excuse of a life most in our homeland have.

i’ll think about you

Thanks kind person.

‘Pentagon Fires’ Editor of ‘Independent Publication’???

What if they’re extending their deployment so that those onboard don’t flee the navy and start ratting out the awesome working conditions?