Hi.

I’m M18. I’ve been rotting in my room for an entire year after high school ended. My parents want me to go to college but I can’t make myself focus on studying no matter how much effort I put into it.

I don’t know what degree I want, and I don’t know if I even want to do anything at all. I’ve been battling with depression since 12 and I just can’t see a path forward. My mind keeps making excuses for why I shouldn’t do things, even though I know for sure that I should be pulling my shit together ASAP. My parents can’t afford to have me being a dead weight forever, and I know I’m wasting my time, BUT I JUST CAN’T MAKE MYSELF DO ANYTHING

I’m autistic and have a bunch of sensibilities. I’ve tried finding jobs around me (rural Brazil) but most of them are manual work and I’m not entirely suited for that stuff (sorry if it sounds like I’m making excuses). I’m still looking but so far I’ve had no luck.

I’m studying the possibility of moving out to live with my dad somewhere else, but so far that’s not happening.

TL;DR: common post-high-school panic

  • wieson@feddit.orgEnglish
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    11 days ago

    I feel like getting into a tiny hobby can awaken interest in fields, where you previously didn’t even know these jobs existed.

    You could try growing one (1) chili plant. Maybe you discover a passion for grafting, mycology, biology, soil chemistry, plant trade.

    Manual labour is really cool and not all of it is backbreaking work. If you’re in rural Brazil, are there essential oil extractors near you? Maybe working with dairy cows is backbreaking but working in cheese making might be more up your alley.

    Often we know the most famous jobs, but there are so many specialisations and branches in every pipeline.

    • braindead_hottie@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
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      11 days ago

      Thanks for the write-up :]

      Manual labour is really cool and not all of it is backbreaking work. If you’re in rural Brazil, are there essential oil extractors near you? Maybe working with dairy cows is backbreaking but working in cheese making might be more up your alley.

      I suppose I don’t really have a reason not to try it. It’s more of a “self-defense mechanism” telling me I’m not fit for that kind of job, but honestly having a job is better than not having a job.

      I feel like getting into a tiny hobby can awaken interest in fields, where you previously didn’t even know these jobs existed.

      I do need a hobby.