A little over a week ago I (20m) went out with my club mates to a restaurant without my parents supervision. It was the first time I ever did that and I felt very happy since i felt that i was doing something normal young adults do when they have friends. the thing is that when I was talking to my siblings and friends about their unsupervised outings with friends they were telling me that they’ve been doing that since they were in middle school and that I’m late to the party.

Why? why am i always late on things that other people do regularly and normally? I don’t know who to blame or even if I should!who should I blame??? Myself for being too afraid to ask to go with my friends anywhere outside of school or a field trip? My parents for constantly telling me ‘nothing is outside for you’ when I asked to play outside as a kid? my friends for not noticing I wanted to join them? my siblings for being outdoor kids unlike me? I don’t know!

I can’t just help but feel like once again I’m doing something that is ‘normal’ but at an abnormal time. i feel like I’m left behind again in terms of development and now everyone is pushing me to go out when I was told always to not go out.

thanks for sitting through my little rant I just needed to vent again. to anyone reading this I hope you guys are doing well and wish you all the best.