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  • Whenever I see a homeless person I give them a lot of money

  • I don’t say no, I say yes and put my discomfort for anything aside, other people’s wants are more important than my feelings

  • I’m very agreeable

  • I do odd jobs for people, even those who don’t like me, and even if I’m exhausted

  • I feel really guilty if I mess up even slightly on something and I’ll apologise and let them know I am sorry for messing up

  • Constantly battling my instincts and my entire personality feels like it’s being filtered

I still feel bad and like it’s all not enough. It’s as if something’s missing, but I don’t know what that something is. Is this normal? Sometimes I think “fuck it, I’m bad, probably was born bad, why don’t I do other bad things as well since that’s what everyone expects of me now” but I push those intrusive thoughts aside.

  • BillDaCatt@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    1 day ago

    Yes, it’s normal.

    I think the part you need to try now is to forgive yourself. You were six. You would likely not make the same choice today. That event is in the past. Try to leave it in the past. You can not go back.

    We all have regrets. We try to learn from our mistakes as best we can and move on. That is all we can do.