I fucking hate my existence, wtf is wrong with my brain, I can’t even feel happiness.
Does coffee make y’all happy?
I think it’s because I overdosed on SSRIs before (was feeling depressed so I chucked a whole bottle, wasn’t not suicidal, just wanted to feel better), and I think I messed up my brain, now I can’t even fucking feel anything. 😢
What do y’all do to feel better?
Drinks? Food? Drugs?
This is firmly in “talk to your doctor” territory, friend. No one here is qualified to advise you, and any advice needs to be 100% custom to you. Good luck. You are worth getting help.
I second this. I’ve been there before. I won’t lie, getting the right treatment down might take weeks, or months. But in the end, after all the work it’s so absolutely worth it.
Utilize whatever resources you have to get it done. Some states have resources for this kind of thing if you’re in the US.
Coffee and drinking for me. I’m really a natural homebody who gets pushed to new outgoing experiences by my close ones. But when I’m left to my own devices, I like discovering new fandoms and really immersing myself, like in an amazing band or video game or binge-worthy TV show for example.
Also I 100% agree with the top comment. Downing a whole bottle is very bad and emergency psychiatric help territory. I hope you understand the seriousness in that.
The thing which works best is going outside especially when it’s sunny and walk for an hour or two. Brings me joy and I forged the bad things every time.
Coffee sometimes diminishes in how well it works for me, and I end up drinking so much that I have panic attacks.
If it’s not neuroreceptor damage from the SSRIs, it might just be time for a tolerance break.
Honestly your body develops a tolerance for caffeine. Try decreasing your intake for a bit and then see what happens.
I do feel you on this, OP. Coffee used to do that with me too. But then I started drinking it daily and I don’t get that anymore. It sucks because I used to enjoy the mood lift.
2nd both the previous posters
I enjoy one cup n the morning. If have too much my taint twitches. No clue why.
This is the coolest thing I read all day.
Welcome to the downward cycle of stimulants, depressants and anti-depressants.
Having been down that path of excess for a good number of years, my only path was straight down. From personal experience, my only path for normality was to stop all of that shit.
It sucks to quit and it sucks to learn how to do this life thing without chemical enhancement. It’s a whole bunch of suck all over the place. However, life eventually got easier to handle and I didn’t have the rollercoaster of drunkness or numbness going on any more.
It took a couple of years, but I would consider life fun again. It just took a while to learn what “fun” actually was for me.
It’s a medical requirement for me to ditch coffee now, unfortunately. However, now that I don’t have a hangover every morning, there is less of a need to drink coffee by the pot anymore, so there is that.
I’m sure you’ve noticed this about more than coffee. You are experiencing life, no? New things are fun and exciting, then, they become less so. This is the same as all drugs, even the best drugs. There is 1 thing i know that doesn’t have “come downs” or tolerance building, and that is positive spiritual endeavors with God. Look internally. Feed yourself with good things. Whatever you believe, we are spiritual beings, so it makes sense that we need to take care of our spiritual nature. Just like our emotional and physical, we need to care for ourselves.
Yeah. I’m sure I’ll get constructive responses from this…
