Well, one thing I do have going for me is that everyone I work with seems to talk me up to management, otherwise I have a feeling I’d already have been removed from this team and moved back to in-company-work. I just can’t seem to translate that to getting points.
Everyone likes working with me, but sometimes I can’t work out what I’m even contributing. If that makes sense… I just wrote it and it barely makes sense to me… just working through this one bite at a time so take this post as “thinking out loud”.
If others sing your praises, then you’re golden. To this day, I despise performance reviews and dread them every year and yet, every year they’re glowing reviews from my peers.
Being high-functioning often means you’re blind to your own contributions and more critical of your own work than others perceive. In time, I learned to accept the praise from others and blindly trust that things are ok even when every fiber of my being says I’m fucking up.
Sounds like you need validation more than anything. The points are bullshit if they don’t reflect the effort. Unfortunately, the corporate world is full of bullshit metrics to gauge productivity. I felt this at the bottom and nothing changed moving into “senior leadership”. It’s all bullshit and I encourage everyone to collect a paycheck and just go home.
Well, one thing I do have going for me is that everyone I work with seems to talk me up to management, otherwise I have a feeling I’d already have been removed from this team and moved back to in-company-work. I just can’t seem to translate that to getting points.
Everyone likes working with me, but sometimes I can’t work out what I’m even contributing. If that makes sense… I just wrote it and it barely makes sense to me… just working through this one bite at a time so take this post as “thinking out loud”.
If others sing your praises, then you’re golden. To this day, I despise performance reviews and dread them every year and yet, every year they’re glowing reviews from my peers.
Being high-functioning often means you’re blind to your own contributions and more critical of your own work than others perceive. In time, I learned to accept the praise from others and blindly trust that things are ok even when every fiber of my being says I’m fucking up.
Sounds like you need validation more than anything. The points are bullshit if they don’t reflect the effort. Unfortunately, the corporate world is full of bullshit metrics to gauge productivity. I felt this at the bottom and nothing changed moving into “senior leadership”. It’s all bullshit and I encourage everyone to collect a paycheck and just go home.