I don’t know if it’ll help you, but I envision myself as having two mes: Sleep Me and Awake Me. Sleep Me is an asshole who’ll ruin my life just to stay asleep for as long as possible. He fights tooth and nail to keep Awake Me from taking control of my body. ”I’m gonna go back to sleep" is Sleep You talking. They’re trying their hardest to convince Awake You that you can’t possibly stand up until Sleep You has had their fill of sleep, but it’s not like “just be happy” or “just pay attention–” you can control your legs!
Can I? Often I seriously lie in bed, mentally going through the motion of getting up step by step the whole time convinced I’m doing it, only to notice seconds later I have not moved at all.
I want to so badly, but unless there’s the time pressure of having to get up or there’ll be bad consequences, I just… can’t
Oh, “just stand up” you say? Wow, after that I could “just get everything important done” and “just make everyone happy”.
I have a better idea: I’m gonna go back to sleep.
I don’t know if it’ll help you, but I envision myself as having two mes: Sleep Me and Awake Me. Sleep Me is an asshole who’ll ruin my life just to stay asleep for as long as possible. He fights tooth and nail to keep Awake Me from taking control of my body. ”I’m gonna go back to sleep" is Sleep You talking. They’re trying their hardest to convince Awake You that you can’t possibly stand up until Sleep You has had their fill of sleep, but it’s not like “just be happy” or “just pay attention–” you can control your legs!
Sleep Me killed Awake Me and now wears his skin in a pale mockery of conscious thought. Sleep Me’s true name is ADD.
Can I? Often I seriously lie in bed, mentally going through the motion of getting up step by step the whole time convinced I’m doing it, only to notice seconds later I have not moved at all.
I want to so badly, but unless there’s the time pressure of having to get up or there’ll be bad consequences, I just… can’t
(Omori)
Imagine not realizing that you actually need healthy sleep