I’m really bad at sticking to things. Every time I try to do something slow and good for me, I do it for a month or two tops and I just revert back into the habits that are bad for me.

For example, I did weightlifting for 2-3 months and I had a lot of fun doing it but I just slowly lost interest and stopped. I did daily journaling and meditation and it gave me a lot of peace and clarity but it only took one mental breakdown for me to quit. I read books daily for a month but I eventually got sucked back into consuming mostly digital media.

I know that all of the former activities were good for me and I genuinely enjoyed doing all of them but I just eventually get sucked back into my old bad habits. How do you break away from that?

For some additional information: I get therapy every 2 weeks and I’m not on any medication. Clinically diagnosed with depression and anxiety

  • @ModalEnglish
    2•1 year ago

    You are what you do.

    I find some things I wanted to do just didn’t fit in the way I was doing them.

    For example journaling and meditation, two things you mentioned, weren’t great for me to be consistent about; I don’t get something out of them every time and they don’t build up for me. I practice meditation enough that its there when I need it to calm things down but not religiously. Journaling was just about reflection to me, just find some quiet time and think, no need to bring writing into it, and finding that time/looking for it/wanting it, I think helps keep over-stimulation in check.

    For weightlifting, why bother? Because I see the consequences in others, it only gets harder the older you get. I liked the idea of “earning” the day by doing something hard to commit to my future and sometimes the hard thing is working out with a migraine or illness, I’m lucky to still be able to.

    What do these things mean to you; what do you want out of them.