Even though he’s not replying.
He’s got a fast car and I just wanna feel something other than this emptiness. Hollow. Nothingness.
He’s so sweet but I don’t deserve his sugar. I’m selfish. I just want to take. I don’t have anything for him but my dignity. He doesn’t want that I don’t think.
I’m addicted to you and you know it. Shouldn’t I get at least something good for that? I’m drowning in you. Your water’s too deep… but I want to swim. I want you to see I’m good. ————- You tell me to stop playing games but it’s just me deleting messages when I’m more sober headed. Need your validation

Have you ever considered learning guitar and expressing your feelings through music?
Not really recently but thanks :)