I swear I’m not Jessica

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Cake day: October 30th, 2024

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  • Ikr? It’s so hard only hearing about people who wanted it when they were a kid. No shade to those people, but only hearing their stories made it so much harder to accept myself. I never consciously thought that I’d want to be a woman, with only indirect signs that I never considered might be related to gender.

    I didn’t realize that I obsessed over my classmates crossdressing because I was jealous. I thought I didn’t want to be topless because I hated being overweight. I thought I hated male locker rooms because my body was ugly, not because my body was masc and I was stuck in a room with men and boys. I couldn’t understand the way dudes socialized and never got why they were unwilling to talk through their feelings and interpersonal drama. I never considered that the real reason I played male characters in games was because I had internalized that being male was the only option that I had.

    In hindsight all these things seem more obvious, but I can only recognize their significance in hindsight, long after I had cracked. If I didn’t learn the importance of valuing current euphoria over investigating my past, I never could’ve accepted myself. I will keep talking about my experience whenever possible, because I know that other people like me need to hear it.










  • The API changes basically killed the third party moderation tools that the mods relied on, and they had no interest in continuing to moderate without them. Whenever I peak back on Reddit, it seems like more bullshit slips through the cracks than before and even the culture of the platform in the better subreddits seems to have regressed compared to the past. On top of that, users being able to hide their profiles causes mods to waste time finding workarounds just to see if someone is a troll or not. It seems like so many users don’t notice it because they’ve gotten used to the crap and every other corpo platform is somehow even worse.


  • I know. I want to edit this meme to say something about the bullshit, but I decided to stop studying math years ago and am woefully unprepared to make a competent math joke. My guess would be something involving Kesler syndrome and exponentially cascading space debris, but I don’t know what would describe that mathematically. Some sort of Markov chain to describe a cascading chain reaction?