Anyone know what I mean? Either I mask into being much quieter and “mysterious” which does help me avoid eye contact, but I just feel like I’m being cool on purpose which is really goofy and undermines my confidence. Otherwise, I think the other personality I fall into is really, like, boring I guess? I basically roleplay as what I imagine a redditor who isn’t bigotted is. Politics definitely plays a role there, obviously, if I feel the need to make a statement about a subject that is prone to set other people off I tend to hide my power level and say things in a very boring and “academic” way. But both of those definitely are pretty far from how I naturally am, and it feels like I’m being a little deceptive to my acquaintances who I don’t know well enough to be myself with.

Also I don’t mean this in a plural sense, I just mean that these are 2 ways that I contort my personality slightly to hide autism a little bit.